Pathetic me.

Last night, I slept at 2 a.m because when I got bk frm Miri, it was already 11pm something. So when I was done with my wash up, I was waiting for his call, hoping to get his attention, like usual before I went to bed. After a while, I realised he was not gonna call me tonight as he was in China, feeling a bit upset and disappointed, I went to sleep.

I was so tired this morning and felt a bit sick and headache, I woke up ard 9 stg. Obviously I was late for work, without much hesitation I sent a sms to my manager telling him I was not gonna work today reason being not feeling well. I had barely any sleep and was in no mood to go anywhere.

Today is just a rough day to me. I totally feeling unwell both physically and mentally. Probably it is the heat or lack of sleep, I am so freaking out and feeling kind of dizzy when I see the crowd, I am so lost and I just wanna be alone.

I have been said to be anti-social nowadays. I seldom go out with friends simply becos I dun like being forced to go out with people whom I am not comfortable with. Honestly speaking, I jt aint interested in filing my time with meaningless wandering or listening to superficial conversation jt to pass my time.

Well, I am not saying people around me are superficial, jt that I prefer to enjoy being alone. I still find the pleasure of, u know, getting up, doing ntg, and then going to bed, repeating it thusly, hehe. I know I am wasting my time. God, please help.

I am telling myself, now, I need to work hard, I must set a goal and achieve it. Otherwise I would be a loser in life. I will start to make it a change. First step is to start with a positive outlook in life. Gambateh~ you can definitely make it, cheers. :)