又一单车祸...

上个周末与旧同事兼好友June 在Mid Valley小聚，距离上一次，我们已经有差不多半年没有见面了。 两个女人一个墟， 虽然不常见面，我们还是有说不完的话题，呵呵。

我们俩都爱喝绿茶，所以进了一间绿茶店Cha Cha， 在那里呆了整半天。那天的我们聊了很多很多，虽然大多时间都是在讲八卦娱乐，哈哈。

听June 说，她的hometown, Bintulu 不久前发生了一起骇人的车祸， 肇祸者是个年仅十七八岁的黄毛小子，而且还是未考到驾驶执照的。事发当天, 他不知天高地厚地载着两名同年龄的友人出游，途中不知是否煞车器失灵还是驾驶技术为够成熟之故， 车祸发生了。

这起车祸其实与一般的无异，认真来讲，没有人为此而丧生， 可以算是庆幸的吧。可是最叫我心寒的是其中一位主角毁容了，对，是女的！ 而且是超严重的那种。不单只这样，她的眼睛失明了，整颗眼睛掉了出来，女孩的父母在事发地点遍地寻找她的眼珠子，却带着失望而归， 最后，医生在她的脸的骨头里面找到了一只眼睛。

我真的真的感觉很震撼，她只有十八岁耶，正值花样年华，就被逼要接受这样残酷的际遇， 她能承受的了吗？我和June 都一致认为，如果我们是她，宁可死了算了。就算再怎么的坚强，以后漫长的岁月要怎么度过啊。

至此之外，肇祸者以后的命运又会是怎样的呢？他会一辈子带着歉疚，抑或是随着时间慢慢淡忘呢？我觉得他一定需要很长时间的心理建设，因为打击实在是太大了。

突然，觉得这个世界有很多人都很不幸的，自己反而幸福多了。常常自怨自艾的我们是否都该好好地反省， 世界的每个角落都有很多的人需要我们的帮助，而我们大多时间都只想着自己，是否太自私了？

My Honey~~

My loving little honey

I love him more each day,

When years have passed by,

I find my love belongs to him only,

Cos when the world seems wrong,

I know that I belong,

Right in my honey's lovin' arms

Grandpa is sick

My grandpa was admitted to hospital last night. I cant help but all fear and emotion run their course. Even though I have no real information upon what had happened or wat's wrong with him, my imagination started to run wild.

Immediately and instinctly, I rang up my mom to check out his condition while trying to persuade myself there is no cause of alarm at this point of time. My mom ended up telling me there's accumulation of water in his lung, and doctor is examining him now albeit the result will be out few days later.

I cant do anything right now bt keep my fingers crossed, I hope he will be alright.

Happy 22nd bday, my dearest brother!

Dear Jackson~~
I am so sorry that I forgot to wish u just now in MSN...u know I always have you in my mind and wishing is just a wishing while blessing sometimes can be unreal...I know what u want in most practical way~~dang dang dang dang~ a brand new Nike shoes as ur bday present, am I right? I know I know...ur shoes has been spoilt and u always like sport shoes....I will buy u one while we shopping together alright cus I really dunno ur lousy taste! :p

Again, happy bday my dear, I wish all ur dreams come true this year and of cos many years ahead. Work hard and study hard, hope ur dream of studying in US come true so that I can travel to US kekeke...Indeed, happy to have u as my brother cus u're wonderful! Enjoy ur big day bday boy, will catch up with u soon alright. see ya. :)

Your pretty sister,
me

像南瓜的面包店

不知道大家有没有留意这家很像南瓜的蛋糕店—Cake Sense。我想这家店的主人一定很喜欢吃南瓜，因为他几乎将整间店都漆上南瓜的颜色，还有还有。。他家的店员都打扮得像南瓜，很逗趣!

我不是面包的fans, 也不是很喜欢吃蛋糕 （认识我的人都知道我比较喜欢吃饭，嘻嘻！）， 可是我却每天都会到这家离我PJ 的家很近的蛋糕店逛逛，目的不是要买蛋糕， 不知道为什么，就是经过的时候，很习惯性的走进去就是了。

这间规模不是很大的蛋糕店，摆放着各式各样的面包，我真的不得不佩服面包师傅，能够把面包变出不同的花样来。一走进店面，就有着扑鼻的阵阵甜味，还有那些小小的，五颜六色的，打扮的美美的蛋糕们，很想会笑似的， 看着它们这么开心，我也会打从心里笑出来。。。

我最爱他家的strawberry short cake, 小小的奶油蛋糕上面点缀着两颗大大的strawberry, 真的真得很漂亮！每一次见到它，就会想起日剧 《蛋糕物语》里的深田恭子问隆泽秀明：“你会先吃蛋糕还是草莓？”那部戏其实是蛮无聊的偶像剧，长大的我已经很少会看偶像剧，然而以前这部戏却确实让我感动过，还有那首英文歌和深田恭子暗恋的学长常常弹奏的钢琴曲，至到现在我都还很喜欢。

今天，我在他家的店买了一个蛋塔 还有一个鸡肉丝面包当我的晚餐，我也在夜市买了南瓜马蹄露。。。这也算是我丰盛的一餐了，呵呵。再见了南瓜店，我明天还会来看你。:p

思念是一种病？

你有试过思念一个人吗？那种感觉既甜蜜又痛苦。他的脸一次又一次的出现在你面前，但他却是那么的遥远，无法亲近。整夜的辗转难眠，脑海里都是他的容颜。

此时此刻的我是多么强烈地思念着他，像是患了重感冒，难受极了。已经习惯了用这种方式折磨自己，像是上了瘾。 我患得患失，我的心情由他来主宰，我无法自拔。。。

思念的滋味，就是这样，我开始懂了。

Pathetic me.

Last night, I slept at 2 a.m because when I got bk frm Miri, it was already 11pm something. So when I was done with my wash up, I was waiting for his call, hoping to get his attention, like usual before I went to bed. After a while, I realised he was not gonna call me tonight as he was in China, feeling a bit upset and disappointed, I went to sleep.

I was so tired this morning and felt a bit sick and headache, I woke up ard 9 stg. Obviously I was late for work, without much hesitation I sent a sms to my manager telling him I was not gonna work today reason being not feeling well. I had barely any sleep and was in no mood to go anywhere.

Today is just a rough day to me. I totally feeling unwell both physically and mentally. Probably it is the heat or lack of sleep, I am so freaking out and feeling kind of dizzy when I see the crowd, I am so lost and I just wanna be alone.

I have been said to be anti-social nowadays. I seldom go out with friends simply becos I dun like being forced to go out with people whom I am not comfortable with. Honestly speaking, I jt aint interested in filing my time with meaningless wandering or listening to superficial conversation jt to pass my time.

Well, I am not saying people around me are superficial, jt that I prefer to enjoy being alone. I still find the pleasure of, u know, getting up, doing ntg, and then going to bed, repeating it thusly, hehe. I know I am wasting my time. God, please help.

I am telling myself, now, I need to work hard, I must set a goal and achieve it. Otherwise I would be a loser in life. I will start to make it a change. First step is to start with a positive outlook in life. Gambateh~ you can definitely make it, cheers. :)

等待的美丽

曾经读过一本书，里面的一则小故事让我蛮感动的。话说张爱玲有个姑姑叫张茂渊，他出身贵族，还曾经留洋念书。这女孩一直独身，当人们终于听到她结婚消息时他已经78岁。

以张茂渊来讲，怎么可能没人爱？她的父亲是清朝的重臣，她有的是万贯家财和才情容貌集于一身，况且她又是中西合璧的可人儿，这等女子几世才有一个啊。可她爱上的翩翩少年是留学时认识的李开第，她认定了他，也被他爱着，可是人家从小就有婚约在身，她不想别人痛苦，于是她放弃，约定了来生，从此再也没有爱过别人。 当李开第的老伴去世后，两个古稀老人终于走在一起，78岁的李茂渊，如愿以偿嫁了初恋的人，从此恩爱生活，直到90岁去世。

不知道这故事的真假，但这样的情节在当今的社会可说是少之又少吧。而对于我来说，这样刻骨铭心的爱情是可遇而不可求的，如果我能遇到一个值得我等待的人，即使等待终于成空，我也不悔， 毕竟把心交给了等待，很浪漫呢。当然大前提是他必须是爱我的，我是不会傻到去等一个不爱我的人，因为这样的等待很折磨人的，一点都不美丽！